it's been a while

idk why i'm bloggin right now...i'm supposed to be studyin for my couples' therapy final...i would say my life is definitely different from da last time i blogged...i give da credit primarily to my school...i'm in my 2nd year in my master's program...bout to graduate in june...my internship is great...actually doing counseling with my own clients...at da same time, i've been unable to work at my job in da city because my homework and internship have been taking up so much of my time that i haven't been able to pick up shifts...and with xmas coming up i could really use da money to buy gifts for da fam or just go out w/theCofam...dance is going well...thanks to pat i'm finally learning wat it is i need to work on to step my game up in da studio...i just hope i can keep up w/practices when spring rolls around because dat will be crunch time for school...have to make sure i got my 150 hrs at my internship, my thesis is complete (which i'm super behind on at da moment), and i just pass all my classes...and i have a strong feeling that i'll be graduating da same day as body rock which is another stressor...haha...oh life...gina and i finally started our movie club w/in the company and i'm proud to say it's been going really well...i haven't been in co-charge of a club since undergrad and i must say it feels good to have some control of da reins...i'm not egotistical...i've had da drive for leadership since prolly high school...currently, talking with a young woman for just over a month now...guess we'll see how it plays out...aite...stay warm, ppl...winter's upon us...pacquiao vs. cotto tonite...watch it or else...you can watch it later...

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2nd place. again. it's a good thing. we ripped. we did everything to get our point across. a number of ppl understood. including the cookies i think. eh. i want to say more but i don't want to come off like i'm repping the entire group. so i'm just going to stop.

The weekend overall was a lot of fun. i was delirious a good amt of the time. trying to catch up on sleep. had a beer. lots of laughs. good bonding time with the cuzin. great bonding time overall with the company. as of right now, this was my last body rock. i know i said that last year, but my schedule next year will very likely not allow me to dance with the company. apparently, i'm not the only one not returning next year. school seems to be the primary reason for not returning and i totally support that, but i can definitely say for myself that i will be having withdrawals.

My dog is crazy. i rush home from san diego to take care of my dog. the house was a mess. she got passed the pocket door and went all tasmanian devil on the living room. she ate a small tub of trader joe's mini peanut butter cups. that had me scared. but she had three bathroom breaks of explosive diarrhea. my poor baby. she'll be fine.

Recital this friday. i'm guessing it'll be the last time i'll dance til intensive. i don't think i can do the sac show on july 11 because my fam has tickets to wicked. i don't think i can get out of watching the show to perform. oh well. nah. this sucks. wicked will be around til september. we'll see what i can do. i really wanna see wicked but i really want to perform. we'll see.

Goals for the summer: finish eclipse and breaking dawn, maybe reread harry potter and the half-blood prince before the movie, watch all the summer blockbusters, choreograph a few pieces for pasa, complete a draft of paper 1 of my thesis, make as much money as i can at work, start my internship near the end of summer break, keep gaining weight, pull off a decent birthday celebration for myself.

I love dance. i love the company, my family, my friends, my crazy dog, good books, movies, and time. time well spent with my loved ones. if you're reading this; you are one of my loved ones. and so i say- i love you.

movies

I love movies. i'm gonna try to talk all about movies in this blog, but i already know i'm gonna go off on tangents. let me get the tangents out of the way. workshop was awesome on sunday. chris, algin, and pat all brought fun and challenging pieces. i was pretty much done for by the end of algin's class so that pat's class was, more or less, a brain frak. matt pushed me into one of the small groups in the end, which i'm actually thankful for because he knows that i need to be pushed. while i wasn't even close to perfect with the piece, it still felt good to run it, to be challenged. body rock is now 10 days away. crazy. idk even know where we're staying yet. haha. one more day of school and i'm done for the year. but i will be working on my thesis throughout my break.

Movies are awesome. ideally, i'd love to have some career in the movies. i have no idea what but it'd be great. netflix is awesome. it is such a great service. i'm slowly catching up on all the movies i want to see, which is just about every movie ever made. my queue has close to 100. my own dvd collection is close to 100. crazy right? i love movies. it's that simple. some of my friends say that i should be a movie critic, but i honestly would be a really bad critic because i pretty much like everything i see. they can be just ok movies and i'll put them on a pedestal. i think it's just because i don't like to be negative. haha. i've seen 4 summer releases so far: wolverine, star trek, UP, and drag me to hell. i would see all of them again except for the last one. i saw drag me to hell this evening w/steez and subi down in santa clara. we had fun watching but the movie itself was eh. if you're going to see it, just go in thinking it is a B-movie and you won't be disappointed. i had a lot of fun just talking w/steez and subes at in-n-out, prolly b/c i don't always have full on conversations w/ppl during practice. don't get me wrong, i love dance, but i wish i get to kick it even more w/company folks outside of the studio than i already do. like watching UP and drag me to hell on non-usual practice days. good ppl. good times.

watch movies because i said so. love the ones you're with. cross your heart. have some adventure. savor every moment, even the boring ones. peace.

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So it's been 2-3 weeks since my last blog. this one will probably be a recap of what's been going on since the last one. 

Well, school's been crazy hella busy and hard the past couple of weeks, mainly because i've had either a paper or a presentation pretty much due every class meeting. on top of all that chaos, i've had thesis deadlines i haven't been meeting and i think i still have to turn something in by the end of next week. haha. wow. good luck me.

My best friend Dave, his gf, and i went to our old friend and roommate's wedding down in monterey. we were late but we caught the vows and exchanging of rings. dave and i are now even (long story). i had a really fun time at the wedding. i tore up the dance floor. the cougars were all over me. haha. quality time w/my best friend since we barely see each other anymore.

Body rock is in 14 days and ppl are still not showing up to practice. it's really sad. idk if sad's the word. usual ppl show up. usual ppl don't show up. wat happened to us? how are we treating body rock like it's a mall show? well, for those who do show up and we don't end up practicing, we end up having a good time. UP in 3D was awesome. we needa see more movies together. quality time spent w/da cuzin/auntie. good affirming and reassuring talk w/a friend. i love the company. i love you guys. happy bday, pat!

i'm excited for workshop. last week of school. i've been eating right and working out and i've almost made my goal of adding 10 lbs. by body rock (which i started right after wod). hopefully i make it. nothing depressing this time. no drama. watch a movie. watch UP. enjoy summer. live life. be happy. hakuna matata. god bless. i'm out. 

weak

It really sucks to know that you're bad at what you love to do. i don't like being negative. most ppl can't even picture me angry. but like i said, it really sucks to know that you're bad at what you love to do. it's frustrating. it eats me up. i feel defeated over and over again. even if this is not my calling in life, i'd still like to be able to keep up with those around me. from where i originally started, i have come a long way, but i feel like i've plateaued. i'm not done yet. i need more time. but my career is just around the corner. i don't know what else to say. this sucks.

I'm behind on my assignments. especially my thesis work. this is not good at all.

Eczema sucks. mine's could be worse. but it still sucks to look like my face is constantly sunburnt. 

I hope my depressive mood has made you feel better about yourself. have a nice day. 

FRAK

So casting for body rock '09 did not go well for me, but i had a really good talk w/pat about what it is i need to do to step my game up. unfortunately, i won't be able to do it in time for body rock. it's ok though. last year i wasn't casted in anything, but i gave my all for whenever i was on stage, and we got 2nd place. i will always give my all when it comes to The Company.

I saw star trek w/a couple of my roommates at the midnite showing on the imax screen in dublin. go see it! whether you're a fan or not, you're gonna like it. i watched a couple of the old shatner-nimoy movies before i saw this one so i could get a little understanding of the story and characters. this new movie is the origin story so you don't need to worry about not understanding anything. just go see it!

Artreezy's 21st bday was hella fun. w/hella company folks in attendance, there was bound to be some craziness and we did not fail to deliver. major props to ryan and chris for going above and beyond the call of duty. lauren and marien rounded up the sexiest and most fun lip sync group to date. i wanna say that i think i'm truly comfortable w/The Company now. when it comes to dancing for fun like tonite, i tend to hold back because i'm worried i'll be judged. tonite showed that i am honestly truly comfortable w/my company folks and i'm so thankful for that because i know i can be myself w/them. it's a really nice feeling to have. thanks again to artreezy for inviting me to celebrate the big two-one w/her.

Well, i'm going kayaking in the morning w/a couple of my roommates and RA's. and i'm way behind on my hw which is really really bad. then off to home for mother's day.

Happy mother's day to your mothers. I want to thank them for bringing you all into my life. peace.

lights out

What an awesome saturday i had. got up at 10:30am. went to brunch at the commons where my roommates and i were invited by my RA (residential assistant) friend raymund and his gf to watch the pacquiao fight at an all-you-can-eat filipino restaurant in hayward. then i went and picked up my bro from work to go watch x-men origins: wolverine. the movie was superb the whole way through. great humor and action sequences. i highly recommend it. then came back to the dorm to do my laundry and then head to the restaurant. raymund directed us to the restaurant which was actually a different one from the one we were originally supposed to go to.

Manila Garden on hesperian and west 'a' street. nice place. all-you-can-eat really good filipino fare for 15 bucks (which is 5 bucks less than the original place). you can tell they have karaoke and dancing at nite. when we got there, we caught the end of the second-to-last undercard fight and caught the soto-gaudin(?) fight which was pretty good. but the energy in the room changed when it was time for the final bout. the lights dimmed in the restaurant. people stopped eating and turned their chairs to focus on the television sets. 

Once the bell rang, every punch pacquiao threw was followed by an 'ooh' or 'ahh', clap or scream. the fervor was contagious. my filipino pride was at an all-time high. 1st knockdown: most of the restaurant jump to their feet, including myself, celebrating. 2nd knockdown: same thing but with more awe because it happened in the same round, the first round. round 2's about to end and that's it. pacman knocks hatton's lights out. the brit was done for. the fight was over. and the entire restaurant were slapping high fives, screaming, and cheering for the 'pound-for-pound fighter' who reps the archipelago known as The Philippines. 

Oh what a day to be alive. good food. good company. quality time with the bro. witnessing a short filipino win a really short fight. haha. gotta love it.

Tomorrow i got a long day ahead of me. last day for the domestic abuse class goes from 9am to 5pm. then stop by chabot to catch wspa at idc. then off to the first practice for body rock.

May's gonna be tough. just keep swimming just keep swimming.