it's been a while

idk why i'm bloggin right now...i'm supposed to be studyin for my couples' therapy final...i would say my life is definitely different from da last time i blogged...i give da credit primarily to my school...i'm in my 2nd year in my master's program...bout to graduate in june...my internship is great...actually doing counseling with my own clients...at da same time, i've been unable to work at my job in da city because my homework and internship have been taking up so much of my time that i haven't been able to pick up shifts...and with xmas coming up i could really use da money to buy gifts for da fam or just go out w/theCofam...dance is going well...thanks to pat i'm finally learning wat it is i need to work on to step my game up in da studio...i just hope i can keep up w/practices when spring rolls around because dat will be crunch time for school...have to make sure i got my 150 hrs at my internship, my thesis is complete (which i'm super behind on at da moment), and i just pass all my classes...and i have a strong feeling that i'll be graduating da same day as body rock which is another stressor...haha...oh life...gina and i finally started our movie club w/in the company and i'm proud to say it's been going really well...i haven't been in co-charge of a club since undergrad and i must say it feels good to have some control of da reins...i'm not egotistical...i've had da drive for leadership since prolly high school...currently, talking with a young woman for just over a month now...guess we'll see how it plays out...aite...stay warm, ppl...winter's upon us...pacquiao vs. cotto tonite...watch it or else...you can watch it later...

random

2nd place. again. it's a good thing. we ripped. we did everything to get our point across. a number of ppl understood. including the cookies i think. eh. i want to say more but i don't want to come off like i'm repping the entire group. so i'm just going to stop.

The weekend overall was a lot of fun. i was delirious a good amt of the time. trying to catch up on sleep. had a beer. lots of laughs. good bonding time with the cuzin. great bonding time overall with the company. as of right now, this was my last body rock. i know i said that last year, but my schedule next year will very likely not allow me to dance with the company. apparently, i'm not the only one not returning next year. school seems to be the primary reason for not returning and i totally support that, but i can definitely say for myself that i will be having withdrawals.

My dog is crazy. i rush home from san diego to take care of my dog. the house was a mess. she got passed the pocket door and went all tasmanian devil on the living room. she ate a small tub of trader joe's mini peanut butter cups. that had me scared. but she had three bathroom breaks of explosive diarrhea. my poor baby. she'll be fine.

Recital this friday. i'm guessing it'll be the last time i'll dance til intensive. i don't think i can do the sac show on july 11 because my fam has tickets to wicked. i don't think i can get out of watching the show to perform. oh well. nah. this sucks. wicked will be around til september. we'll see what i can do. i really wanna see wicked but i really want to perform. we'll see.

Goals for the summer: finish eclipse and breaking dawn, maybe reread harry potter and the half-blood prince before the movie, watch all the summer blockbusters, choreograph a few pieces for pasa, complete a draft of paper 1 of my thesis, make as much money as i can at work, start my internship near the end of summer break, keep gaining weight, pull off a decent birthday celebration for myself.

I love dance. i love the company, my family, my friends, my crazy dog, good books, movies, and time. time well spent with my loved ones. if you're reading this; you are one of my loved ones. and so i say- i love you.

movies

I love movies. i'm gonna try to talk all about movies in this blog, but i already know i'm gonna go off on tangents. let me get the tangents out of the way. workshop was awesome on sunday. chris, algin, and pat all brought fun and challenging pieces. i was pretty much done for by the end of algin's class so that pat's class was, more or less, a brain frak. matt pushed me into one of the small groups in the end, which i'm actually thankful for because he knows that i need to be pushed. while i wasn't even close to perfect with the piece, it still felt good to run it, to be challenged. body rock is now 10 days away. crazy. idk even know where we're staying yet. haha. one more day of school and i'm done for the year. but i will be working on my thesis throughout my break.

Movies are awesome. ideally, i'd love to have some career in the movies. i have no idea what but it'd be great. netflix is awesome. it is such a great service. i'm slowly catching up on all the movies i want to see, which is just about every movie ever made. my queue has close to 100. my own dvd collection is close to 100. crazy right? i love movies. it's that simple. some of my friends say that i should be a movie critic, but i honestly would be a really bad critic because i pretty much like everything i see. they can be just ok movies and i'll put them on a pedestal. i think it's just because i don't like to be negative. haha. i've seen 4 summer releases so far: wolverine, star trek, UP, and drag me to hell. i would see all of them again except for the last one. i saw drag me to hell this evening w/steez and subi down in santa clara. we had fun watching but the movie itself was eh. if you're going to see it, just go in thinking it is a B-movie and you won't be disappointed. i had a lot of fun just talking w/steez and subes at in-n-out, prolly b/c i don't always have full on conversations w/ppl during practice. don't get me wrong, i love dance, but i wish i get to kick it even more w/company folks outside of the studio than i already do. like watching UP and drag me to hell on non-usual practice days. good ppl. good times.

watch movies because i said so. love the ones you're with. cross your heart. have some adventure. savor every moment, even the boring ones. peace.

no title

So it's been 2-3 weeks since my last blog. this one will probably be a recap of what's been going on since the last one. 

Well, school's been crazy hella busy and hard the past couple of weeks, mainly because i've had either a paper or a presentation pretty much due every class meeting. on top of all that chaos, i've had thesis deadlines i haven't been meeting and i think i still have to turn something in by the end of next week. haha. wow. good luck me.

My best friend Dave, his gf, and i went to our old friend and roommate's wedding down in monterey. we were late but we caught the vows and exchanging of rings. dave and i are now even (long story). i had a really fun time at the wedding. i tore up the dance floor. the cougars were all over me. haha. quality time w/my best friend since we barely see each other anymore.

Body rock is in 14 days and ppl are still not showing up to practice. it's really sad. idk if sad's the word. usual ppl show up. usual ppl don't show up. wat happened to us? how are we treating body rock like it's a mall show? well, for those who do show up and we don't end up practicing, we end up having a good time. UP in 3D was awesome. we needa see more movies together. quality time spent w/da cuzin/auntie. good affirming and reassuring talk w/a friend. i love the company. i love you guys. happy bday, pat!

i'm excited for workshop. last week of school. i've been eating right and working out and i've almost made my goal of adding 10 lbs. by body rock (which i started right after wod). hopefully i make it. nothing depressing this time. no drama. watch a movie. watch UP. enjoy summer. live life. be happy. hakuna matata. god bless. i'm out. 

weak

It really sucks to know that you're bad at what you love to do. i don't like being negative. most ppl can't even picture me angry. but like i said, it really sucks to know that you're bad at what you love to do. it's frustrating. it eats me up. i feel defeated over and over again. even if this is not my calling in life, i'd still like to be able to keep up with those around me. from where i originally started, i have come a long way, but i feel like i've plateaued. i'm not done yet. i need more time. but my career is just around the corner. i don't know what else to say. this sucks.

I'm behind on my assignments. especially my thesis work. this is not good at all.

Eczema sucks. mine's could be worse. but it still sucks to look like my face is constantly sunburnt. 

I hope my depressive mood has made you feel better about yourself. have a nice day. 

FRAK

So casting for body rock '09 did not go well for me, but i had a really good talk w/pat about what it is i need to do to step my game up. unfortunately, i won't be able to do it in time for body rock. it's ok though. last year i wasn't casted in anything, but i gave my all for whenever i was on stage, and we got 2nd place. i will always give my all when it comes to The Company.

I saw star trek w/a couple of my roommates at the midnite showing on the imax screen in dublin. go see it! whether you're a fan or not, you're gonna like it. i watched a couple of the old shatner-nimoy movies before i saw this one so i could get a little understanding of the story and characters. this new movie is the origin story so you don't need to worry about not understanding anything. just go see it!

Artreezy's 21st bday was hella fun. w/hella company folks in attendance, there was bound to be some craziness and we did not fail to deliver. major props to ryan and chris for going above and beyond the call of duty. lauren and marien rounded up the sexiest and most fun lip sync group to date. i wanna say that i think i'm truly comfortable w/The Company now. when it comes to dancing for fun like tonite, i tend to hold back because i'm worried i'll be judged. tonite showed that i am honestly truly comfortable w/my company folks and i'm so thankful for that because i know i can be myself w/them. it's a really nice feeling to have. thanks again to artreezy for inviting me to celebrate the big two-one w/her.

Well, i'm going kayaking in the morning w/a couple of my roommates and RA's. and i'm way behind on my hw which is really really bad. then off to home for mother's day.

Happy mother's day to your mothers. I want to thank them for bringing you all into my life. peace.

lights out

What an awesome saturday i had. got up at 10:30am. went to brunch at the commons where my roommates and i were invited by my RA (residential assistant) friend raymund and his gf to watch the pacquiao fight at an all-you-can-eat filipino restaurant in hayward. then i went and picked up my bro from work to go watch x-men origins: wolverine. the movie was superb the whole way through. great humor and action sequences. i highly recommend it. then came back to the dorm to do my laundry and then head to the restaurant. raymund directed us to the restaurant which was actually a different one from the one we were originally supposed to go to.

Manila Garden on hesperian and west 'a' street. nice place. all-you-can-eat really good filipino fare for 15 bucks (which is 5 bucks less than the original place). you can tell they have karaoke and dancing at nite. when we got there, we caught the end of the second-to-last undercard fight and caught the soto-gaudin(?) fight which was pretty good. but the energy in the room changed when it was time for the final bout. the lights dimmed in the restaurant. people stopped eating and turned their chairs to focus on the television sets. 

Once the bell rang, every punch pacquiao threw was followed by an 'ooh' or 'ahh', clap or scream. the fervor was contagious. my filipino pride was at an all-time high. 1st knockdown: most of the restaurant jump to their feet, including myself, celebrating. 2nd knockdown: same thing but with more awe because it happened in the same round, the first round. round 2's about to end and that's it. pacman knocks hatton's lights out. the brit was done for. the fight was over. and the entire restaurant were slapping high fives, screaming, and cheering for the 'pound-for-pound fighter' who reps the archipelago known as The Philippines. 

Oh what a day to be alive. good food. good company. quality time with the bro. witnessing a short filipino win a really short fight. haha. gotta love it.

Tomorrow i got a long day ahead of me. last day for the domestic abuse class goes from 9am to 5pm. then stop by chabot to catch wspa at idc. then off to the first practice for body rock.

May's gonna be tough. just keep swimming just keep swimming.

lost in translation

So i found a program from wod in my backpack and The Shit Kings are not actually The Shit Kings. they are Shikkin. we misunderstood them. haha the joke's on us. either way they're frakkin dope.

Since the last time i posted, which was sunday nite-monday morning, not much has really happened to be honest. just trying to stay on top of my hw, which i'm not doing too well for some classes. my utmost concern is my research class because we're starting to work on our thesis. the class is helping us write our lit review, which is paper 1 of the thesis. by the end of the quarter and a little before then, i'm supposed to turn in drafts 1 and 2 of the lit review. they want 25-30 pages. yah. crazy right? the longest paper i ever had to write was 10 pages. luckily, my thesis advisors are awesomely helpful. in case you were wondering, my topic is dance-related. my reasonings on choosing such a topic are 1) it's a topic i care very deeply for and 2) since i won't be able to dance w/The Company next year, i see this as my way of staying within the dance community. i'll continue to fill you in as i meet the list of deadlines.

May is gonna be hella crazy busy for me. on top of all the papers and presentations for school, every weekend i have something to do:

May 3: last weekend class for the quarter, stop by IDC, and then off to the first practice for BD

May 8/May 9/May 10: artreezy's 21st/sfsu pcn (?)/mother's day

May 16: show in sac

May 23: scotty's wedding (congrats, steez!)

may 30: pat's 23rd

Snap, son. how am i gonna do it? tune in to find out.

I'm excited to take the hip hop class on campus that i'm not even enrolled in. algin's teaching wednesdays 4/29 and 5/6. and then i'm teaching 5/13 and 5/20!!! wat wat.

i apologize

I apologize for not being clear in my last post. i apologize for shoving my own beliefs down your throat. i didn't mean to get an education if your working. i meant that if you're working a job a high school student should be doing, like the woman on the corner with the pom poms, only then do i recommend getting an education. i'm just going to move on now.

Shaun was back in town and he was trailed by THE SHIT KINGS. that's right: THE SHIT KINGS. the dopest, amazingly crazy japanese dancers ever. apparently they were at wod when we were there, but luckily, The Company was blessed to watch an exclusive performance of their set last nite after practice. i wish i could go on about them and the rest of my weekend but i have a lot of hw to do.

May is going to be hella hella busy for me. gotta get crackin. stay up.

I've only been up for 9.5 hrs

I try to average at least 7 hrs of sleep a nite, so since i went to bed at 4am this morning, i set my alarm for 11am. it goes off at 11am, i go back to bed thinking i'll sleep maybe another half hour. i finally get up, check my cell phone, and it's frakkin 2:30 in the afternoon. that's 10 hrs of sleep. whether you see it as good or bad, i see it as i needa play catch up to all the shiznit i'm supposed to do today. my plan was to get up, eat, drop by roommate's netflix in the mail, finish my family genogram and whatever other hw i have to do and then just take it from there. well, i got the first two items done w/no problem. the third item, dropping off the netflix, became a hassle. 

I walked to the campus bookstore because the post office is inside thinking it closes at 4pm on saturdays. wrrrong. closed at 3--son of a...hopped in the car to drive around campus and, if need be, around town to find a mailbox. i head towards the nearest bank b/c i know there's gotta be a mailbox and i was right. but that was like a 7 minute drive. what's w/the lack of mailboxes, usps? as i waited for the green light arrow to illuminate, i watched a 30-40 yr. old woman on the opposite street corner energetically shake pom poms with one of those enormous arrow signs for a sale at some furniture store down the block hanging around her neck. and that's where my message for tonite comes in: Get an education!

I know some people are not meant for school or school is not meant for them, but there are programs out there that can give you a career. times are tough right now and the only way to stay afloat is to either have a job or be in school to help you get a job. listen to that black dude on the everest college commercials and give em a call. or western career college, itt tech, seqouia...give em a call if you are absolutely doing nothing. we all have something to contribute to society.

I'm a bit irked by the fact that I have to miss The Company's workshop tomorrow because i have a weekend child abuse class, but hey, it's for my career. what are you doing to contribute to society?

Have a good sunday. 

conformity's ok

no one, including myself, would expect me to do a blog. i just couldn't help myself though after hearing about all the fun several of my fellow Company members were having with their blogs. on my drive back to hayward, i was thinking of what the hell i would write about if i were to have my own blog. low and behold, i'm pretty much talking about nothing, which is fine by me because it's my first one. so watev. pish posh. oh yah, it's hella late btw. getting close to 4am. alright. i'm gonna end this blog with a message: conformity's ok as long as it doesn't hurt anyone. i conformed to starting a blog and it's ok. i promise i'll become more interesting as i get the hang of this new procrastination tool.